Chapter 511
Gavin’s POV
“What the fuck do you mean you were a spy?” I asked, feeling my temper rising as I stared at her.
She bit her lower lip and nibbled on it gently.
“Levi Churchill hired me,” she admitted, furrowing my brows as I stared at her. “He’s after your company secrets, Gavin. I was young and weak at the time. I did whatever he wanted me to do. So, I pretended to be a nurse and stuck by your side, while collecting data.”
I was dumbstruck by her admittance. I pulled away from her, hurt by what she was saying. I had fallen for her back then; I was prepared to get down on one knee and propose marriage to this girl. But instead, she had been playing me.
“Was any of it real?” I asked her, my tone hardening as my eyes narrowed. “Any of the feelings you felt for me… any of the stuff that you had said to me… was it all fake? Part of the game you were playing to appease my enemy?” With each question I asked, my voice rose even more.
Tears filled her eyes, and she tried hard to blink them away, but they were still evident.
“I never expected to fall for you,” she whispered brokenly. “Once I did… once I knew I was in too deep, I knew I needed to get out.”
“So, you faked your own death,” I whispered. It wasn’t a question, just a statement.
She nodded her head, her teeth digging into her bottom lip.
“Yes,” she whispered. “I faked my own death. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I had to take lives in order to make that happen and make you believe that I was gone for good. I wanted to come back to you so many times and confess everything, but I was too afraid… too weak.”
“And now?” I asked, unable to look her in the eyes any longer. “Why are you back now?”
“Because I couldn’t stay away any longer,” she admitted. “I’ve missed you so much. Since leaving, a part of of has been missing. I love you so much, Gavin, and the thought of not being around you any longer… it kills me inside.”
“Why should I believe a thing that you say to me now?” I asked her, my tone hardening even more. I didn’t trust her, not after everything she had told me, but I couldn’t deny that the old feelings I once had for her were still bubbling in my chest, making it difficult for me to turn her away completely.
“Because I cut ties with Levi completely,” she told me. “I’m a rogue, I’m no longer part of his pack. I hadn’t been for a long time. You can smell me… do you smell him on me?”
“I couldn’t smell him on you before either,” I told her coldly. “Try again.”
“Because I had been residing in your pack for a long time before I got to know you was playing the long
game previously. Hiding in your net
pack, training… obtaining a medical background so I could be
sister’s nurse without raising
suspicion. I made friends, so it didn’t seem like I came out of nowhere. I
had been here for a few years,
learning the ways of your pack
before I actually met you.”
“And you expect me to believe that you aren’t playing the long game again?” I asked him. “After everything I’ve learned today, I wouldn’t be surprised if you were up to something again.”
“Why would I tell you any of this if I were after you, Gavin?” She asked. “Why would I put myself in that position and make you not trust me right off the bat?”
When I remained silent, unsure of how to answer that question, she continued.
“I hate that you look at me like a monster… that I can’t be trusted. But Gavin, if I really wanted to… I could have come up with another lie to put myself back in your good graces. Instead, I opened up the truth and told you everything. I don’t want there to be lies between us… not anymore.”
“It’ll take some time for me to trust you again,” I told her.
She nodded.
“I completely understand that, Gavin. I truly do,” she assured me, reaching out and putting her hand on mine. met her eyes for the first time in what felt like hours, though I knew we had only been talking for about 30 minutes. I still had so many questions for her, but my head was reeling with all the new information I had found out today. I needed some time to think about it all and figure out where exactly we stood with one another.
Obviously, things couldn’t go back to the way things were but seeing her
again after all these years… the woman planned to propose to… the only other one I loved besides Melissa… it was difficult being in her presence without feeling myself fall back into the same pattern. Almost wanting to pull her into my arms and protect her from the world of chaos. I held myself back and ran my fingers through my hair, her touch on my arm almost intoxicating and burning a hole in my flesh.